/// FILM   08.27.10   Posted by Constance

As my life changes drastically I find myself so scared, but pain is comfort. I don’t know what it’s like to be happy. When I feel it I don’t know what to do.I’ve been taking a lot of me time and more and more I’m improving. I’ve been away to method acting school in Montauk. What an amazing experience that will be remembered by me as the turning point in my life. I highly recommend classes with Gary Swanson.

Gary doesn’t allow just anyone in his classes. He studied with Lee Strausberg for 8 years. Lee trained actors like James Dean, Marilyn Monroe and Dustin Hoffman. Method is amazing. I can’t explain it to you, you just have to experience. Everything in life should be an experience. Experience everything

An amazing book and film helping me find understanding right now is Eat Pray Love. Before you think painfully sappy chick flick. Whoa! This chick flick is based on a true story. That gets tons of respect from me. The movie is okay. Doesn’t do the book the justice it deserves. Read the book and you will learn a ton. The book is written like a Michael Crichton book. Skillfully written so you won’t even know you’re learning a bunch of facts you will be able to recite later on. Passion makes this book incapable of leaving your hands. Yes, I didn’t write so you can’t put the book down.

For anyone wondering what to do with your life or feeling like you’re ready to end it read this book. I know I can so relate to Elizabeth Gilbert. She reflects on her desires for suicide and finding the way to be happy finally. How she found herself in her mid 30s. I’m working on all this right now. For now I’ll leave it at that. We are all human and need something to relate to. I’m moving my life along. Taking control. It’s amazing bliss.

The story starts with Elizabeth and her husband trying to get pregnant and they can’t. Within 7 months Elizabeth divorces her husband and gets through the painful divorce by traveling. Traveling she experiences new places and herself. Watch the movie for inspiration. Read the book for loads of life lessons.

No destiny is ever totally predetermined. We are all in control!

Delay nothing. You need to rest do now. Listen to your body. You know what you need. No one else does. Need advice? Ask yourself. You’re all you will ever need. But who can argue with having someone, that one, along the journey. Or like Sex and the City you could marry yourself. lol

Anyways….

Love you all xoxoxo